Love

Aaron caught Isaac making this really weird face earlier while they were playing. I think it warrants a post here. :)

I really can't wrap my head around how much I love this little guy. It just blows my mind. Like there is nothing in the world I wouldn't give up or do for him in a heartbeat. Amazing how that works.

A year ago today I was dreading our infertility consult and depressed to know that 2 members of Aaron's family were expecting. I was absolutely drowning in sorrow, and now I know no greater joy than to see the smile on my son's face, or to see the way he looks at me.

I am so grateful for how the King of all creation rescued me from that sorrow, and opted to allow my womb to carry this tiny treasure. A year ago he was still a ball of cells too small to see on an ultrasound, and now here is a 13 pound beautiful boy with fingers and toes and ears and a nose. Simply amazing. More amazing yet is the fact that I get to be his mommy.

A year ago, I had no idea this was ever going to happen.

Small victories

Ah, motherhood can be so glamorous at times.

I am here to declare my victories from last night and this morning over... drumroll please:

Farts & boogers!

Yep. Last night the poor little guy had such terrible gas pain. His tummy was super tight, we were trying everything to help him work it out. I gave him his mylicon gas drops and started nursing him. About a half hour later relief finally came, and it was LOUD. Isaac looked so tired, but so much less stressed once THAT was out! Lol. Of course, we got to change into new jammies after that.

He's also had a bit of a cold this week so to top off the crying from gas pain last night, there was also the snorting and difficulty breathing that continued into this morning. Which made it difficult for him to eat this morning. So I got my handy-dandy nose sucker and went to work. I knew it was in there but couldn't get it. Even with Aaron helping me wrangle him. I busted out the saline drops and put those up there, much to Isaac's chagrin, and those really helped loosen up the culprits. I got the right nostril fairly easily, but the left side was harboring that fugitive like nobody's business. After a couple good crying screams and snorts, Isaac shook it loose and mommy grabbed it with the sucker.

Now he was able to finish his breakfast and he is happily cooing while he hangs out in his swing.

It was a rough end to a rough day/night. Hopefully that means a good start for today.

Quick update

Looking back, I kind of can't believe I am still breastfeeding. I am so thankful for the support and resources I had. I know I would have quit if not for them.

In other news, Isaac now has his own Facebook. Not because of my nerdiness, but to prevent friends who are TTC/going through infertility from constantly having to see and hear about him. So add him if you want.

Gotta go, my Monday awaits and it's full of work.

My "Babies"

Are you ready for some serious cuteness?

Scout loves her "brother". Don't tell Aaron I called him that. ;)